Another Sad Junk Poem

I remember scoring the junk
At the time I thought
These are just harmless pills
Progression from simple Vicodin
To Norco to morprhine to oxy
To heroin, or anything hands
Could be laid upon
Home made opium was fun
Injecting, finding the veins
Is not
Realization of complications
Felt from from withdrawals hit hard
Colored real world
Turns to grey bleak fake world
Ask yourself
How hard can this be?
Suicidal hard is the real answer
Don’t let any doctor tell you otherwise
Turn to the “miracle”
Suboxone; doctors and big pharmacies
Got you by the short hairs now
For life, ever indebted
Opioids/opiates have a
Love/hate relationship with many
Not just you average park-sleeping junker
But the nurses, doctors
Yeah about 1/3 of them
Students, low class, middle class, upper
It is everywhere
And unless you know
You don’t know
And it’s good to keep it that way

Schools Financial Credit Union Robs Poor Members.

By Staff Writer: James Smith

It isn’t often I take up space on this website to rant about businesses which I dislike. But I have had enough with this group and feel that I must in this case. I have been a member of SCHOOLS FINANCIAL CREDIT UNION for over 12 years. I am not claiming to be a model customer by any means but I have never done them any wrong. I have paid off two cars over the years with them. I have often overdrawn my account, but have ALWAYS promptly repaid them. They closed my account once (after I had been laid off, and was looking for a new job) but it was opened back up.

About six months ago after a financial review I decided my bank account needed a closer look. I calculated all the fees they had charged me over the last fiscal year. The amount was almost 1000 dollars! This was about 6% of all my wages for the entire year. Yes, I only make about 16K a year, as I work part time, go to school part time, as well as put in much time at charities.

This above frames the larger picture, so let me give you an idea of how the last transaction went about, a micro view: I went into the branch and I got out some money, I also knew that I had bills coming out so asked the teller at the branch to transfer money from my checking into my savings. He said OK, but it turns out he never did. I checked my account online a few days later to find -250 dollars in my checking and 250 in my savings account. They had let payments come out of my account (with an attached 27 dollar fee each) until my two accounts were equal. You see, they knew how much money I had, and how long to keep stealing before they would stop. Here is my simple question: If you have the god damned money in your account why don’t they just fucking take it? Now I am out of 150 dollars, and they say there is nothing that they can do.

In my opinion Schools Credit Union doesn’t want low income accounts, this of course touches those the most in lower socioeconomic status, therefor it is harder for Latin, African American, etc., people to get and maintain an account. I am not saying that this problem occurs only with Schools, but the mistrust we all feel for the banking industry has surely crept into the Credit Unions as well. Before you open an account with Schools in the local Sacramento area, I would reccomend looking towards Golden One, Safe or another area credit union first. I would love to hear similar stories, so feel free to comment below.

Two Pussies & a Tom

I have two pussies and a tom
The tom is in my lap
My one pussy is lying next to me
As I stroke her and she purrs
Leg kicks signal cat dreams abound
Other pussy lies on my bed
Chatting to her mother
In pink polka dotted thong
About her pregnant sister
Mom wants her to keep it
And Melissa is giving it up for adoption
Case closed
Pussy number 2 will get off the phone soon
She will wipe her ass
Front to back
And then I will have sex with her

Wake Up

Dreams in our sleep
Make us all think
For if there exist these
Alternative worlds of the night
Which come to mind at ease
Might this be a clue
To other dimensions
Other realities
What make dreams less real

The fact that we wake
Perhaps your dream was the anomaly
And everyone else is still asleep, so many
But you have thought about this before
So go back to being a bore

Pondering “Psychosocial Evolution”

I often let my mind wander in in the realm of psychosoocial Darwinism, as it is entruiging yet elusive what may become of us humans if our brains evolve in the future (they have up to this point, so why stop now?). Will our prefrontal cortexes continue to grow out forward? Will we enjoy the power associated with an advanced brain, growing something perhaps called a pre-prefrontal cortex or device similar to this? If our current prefrontal cortex is the decision making center, what function will this so called preprefrontal cortex have?

We really can’t guess, looking back on modern humans before we had the prefrontal cortex as advanced as we do now could we have even been able to rationalize what higher level decision making would entail? Doubtful, as we wouldn’t have the proper nueral pathways that could make this into a coherent sensible thought. Perhaps our current brain, without any extension or change that may occur, can likewise not recognize or comprehend what that change may be.

But it’s still fun to guess at what these changes could be. Perhaps there would be some sort of symbiotic funtioning center, where we as humans evolve to coexist and work in tandem with eachother in peace and in harmony. Maybe after years and years of brutal war and conflict, those who enjoy to fight compelled by things such as war, money, and power will be naturaully selected to not reproduce.

Maybe the evolution will turn murdering into an act so unthinkable humans never partake of it at all. Just like taking a dagger and puncturing your stomach and ripping up extremely hard, no one does this, unless they are criminally insane. So, perhaps somthing on this magnitude will be the type of evolution that will occur of a vast period of time.

This brings us to an important place; will there be outliers that deviate and become problems? It is hard to say since we don’t really know what will happen in this course of natural selectoin. Perhaps these functions of the brain will make these actions extinct like an animal forever lost to the endagered species list. Or maybe a weird breed of super-criminal will emerge for super-ciminal fighters to fight. It is just impossible to say at this point since our brains can’t comprehend what changes may occur.

What I am inclined to guess is that the processes that will occur with humans will involve the mutual survival of our specieces, so it is fairly safe to say that these changes will be in the love / kind / caring / peace / etc. realms. War and conflict cause devistation and death. Peace and education lead to well being and happiness, this is therefore the obvious route natural selection should lead us as perfecting humans.

Superpowers? Is it possible we could develop them? Very likely indeed, if we look at many different animals and insects they possess natural processes that if adapted to humans would be interpreted as super powers. The ability for the squid to almost completely dissapear into its background, differnt insects being able to see the ultraviolet and infrared spectrums, ginkos being able to walk up completely flat non-porous walls. These are just a small smattering of possible funtions we could come to possess. This doesn’t even include the possiblity of higher unknown functions that we may be able to tap into.

What if there is some sort of quantum mind? Perhaps the mind and consciousness is some sort of state that is encapsulated in our neural network. Perhaps by physical processes still unkknown to us there are ways that we could develop communication by sending signals directly from brain to brain (telepathy). The sky is really the limit on what could occur.

Since it has not happened, and therefore may not be explored it is generally not considered a science, but I propose just as a meteorologist forcasts the weather, it is possible for us to forcast the possiblities that may lie in wait for Human psychosocial evolution, and should not be looked past with a laugh. Even though we will not see it in our lives, we are supposed to see computers reach a cognitive level matching our minds any year now, perhaps we can model computers to go beyond what our minds can do, and this is where the real magic lies.

Womens Poerty Series

Introduction:  There are currently many protests accompanied by much upheaval throughout the world. A very important issue which has not gotten its due attention these days are; womens rights. Yes, here in the United States and to varying degrees all over the globe women are still far from being on a level playing field. In some countries the landscape facing women is much more daunting. Such an example can be shown in much of Africa and the Middle East where women still are forced to have female genital mutilation (FGM). I wrote these poems not to steal the light from such fine movements as Occupy, but  to add a voice to the crowd and stand in solidarity. Here is the first installment, more to come soon.

Note: These poems contain explicit content.


They pluck you from your
Village your hut
Your sanctuary, your haven
Converted to your hell
Rivers of blood run down
His fundamentalist arms
Your dampened screams
Echo through the desert canvas
Hut doors occasionally open
Heads pop out and inquisitively
Look around to see nothing
A piece of your flesh emerges
It is laid on your upper leg
Everything has changed
Everything hurts
Everything has changed


A youth stolen
Plundered by a family friend
Not a stranger
Man in van with candy
Chubby, moustache
Like media portrays
Not this time, he was
Very close, unsuspected
So close in fact
You are afraid to expose
As this would break
Everyone’s paradigms
You avoid eye contact
With him at family functions
Does he think she forgot?
Sex isn’t desired by her
It gives her shame
she often wonders why everyone
Wants it, she is alone
She is one third
Of all women


The man is the workhorse
He makes the world go round
If it wasn’t for him
Nothing would function
Factories smoke stacks wouldn’t smoke
Conveyer belts wouldn’t convey
Timber wouldn’t fall
And criminals wouldn’t be arrested
Women are here to please the man
To make babies and
Later be nice old grandmas
Surprising this is how much
Of the world still thinks
But in reality
Allyn and Bacon
Have shown as fact:
Women do 66% of the worlds work
To only receive 10% of the income
This fact lies in stark contrast
Of age old stereotypes
And should give everyone
A resounding wakeup call
Smack in the face


Fake tits, nose
Fake ass, lips, cunt
Nip, tuck
Cut, peel
Scrape, scalpel
Real life Photoshop
These are only the younger years
Around 45, here comes round 2
Botox, Facelift, Botox
More shit lifted
Left looking like
A washed up mistake
The problems
Run deep
But you have only
Treated the surface
Those magazines once read
As youth brainwashed
So subconsciously
You are adamant that
Those ads didn’t affect
You, not you, maybe them
But not you


The masses show their Vendetta
Masks, they chant
We are the 99%!
Their cause is just
Have we forgotten?
For eons, the other half
The 50%, women
Have never been equal
What will it take?
Awareness, campaign, or movement
What will adjust environments?
To equalize the playing fields
99 percent to 50 percent
To African American 14%
To American Indian 1%
Everyone needs equality
But some have been waiting much
L    O    N    G    E    R

Lesbian Accessory

Sexuality trivialized
Chic hipsters marginalize
Lesbianism by making it a
Fashion, cheapened for those
That had to reveal to
Unwelcoming family, friends
Sorrow and heart break
Still enduring
Some moms never talk to her again
Some dads do the same
Some friends gone forever
No luxury to pull back
And choose another color
Accessory ordered to go
American Apparel
Just buy what they wear
On the back of Vice Magazine


As soon as baby girl
Ejects from vagina
Pink, sparkles, tiaras, etc.
Are vomited on to her
As she tries to cry
Pink pacifier with glittery tip
Shoved in her mouth
Her doll toys are
Barbies and Bratz
It is obvious these dolls,
If they were real humans, have sex
Lots of it, they look the part
So we push these plastic
Role models on our little
Girls at a young age, why?
Are we subliminally
Our youth at abhorrently
Young ages?

Abhorant Shun

Bible belt billiards
Balls represent the years/decades
They are on a haphazard pool table
We call America
Abortion the issue being played upon
Still becomes an election time issue
Religions still attempt to
Impose their way on all
They chant “murderers, murderers”
As they run to go to war
And kill some “Sand Niggers”
We are one of the only
Nations still making an issue
Out of this human right
And why’s America still in the dark ages
Let women do what they want
Leave them alone
Let them choose
Let your god
Their god
No god
Buddah, Whomever your
Creator or judgment day judge
Judge, and move on to some
Real issues

Grey Day

I’m fucking sick and tired of living in a world of black and whites (not race). I’m tired of everything having to be one or another, no dualities, promoting one cause or hating it. No one can just say, “I’m standing right in the middle on that issue.” That is the problem with almost everything in our country. The rich have been laughing since the Reagan and Bush One tax cuts that widened the wealth gap, realizing that they pay less (percent-wise) than the average middle class American. But all you hear in the media are people talking about either “no new taxes” or “new taxes.” Black and white, no compromising to be had anywhere. After seeing that trickle down economics is a fail, why don’t we move on? Oh, I know: because the rich have become a juggernaut that can’t be stopped.

So back to the basics, let’s look at the right wing and the left wing. The purists on the right would like to keep getting fatter and fatter and playing chess with their billion dollar companies as if it’s a weird rich-person type of game, but we need to get a handle on this delusional mess. There are two types of republicans; those that are rightly stereotyped the powerful tycoons, sans Warren Buffet and there are the working class ones. I often wonder why the working class right-wingers who listen to talk radio are so indoctrinated. And I figured it out; they have a sense of false class consciousness. Glenn Beck, Michael Savage, Rush Limbaugh and these other pundits are the upper class false consciousness agents. Why would one be so suicidal to vote against health care that would perhaps save their dying sister or son? Why would one vote to not lower their middle class taxes? Because these agents that work for the bourgeoisie play on the social issues at hand. The issues that are played and are a tired discourse of failed trumpeters.

If the right is the black, let the left be the white (color here has no negative or positive connotation here). On the extreme left side we have the academic elites many of which are behaviorists who think they are supreme in knowledge and would love to be able to mold the average citizen in a perverse academic experiment-world void of freedom. Never mind innate human rights, for these elites know what is best for everyone. They are better read and have more knowledge, therefore it makes them seemingly more qualified to be on a path to what looks like a dictatorship to me.

What we need is gray! Let’s look at Norway, Sweden and Finland. These and other socialist countries have been quietly thriving and extremely successful for many years now. The major global crisis’s rarely ever touch them. They have very high satisfaction rates amongst the populace, high creativeness rates, and great health care. The propaganda you have heard opposite of this is likely coming from the American power broker elites. Socialism is synonymous with communism in the United States for some reason, but why? If one were to look on a spectrum, with communism on one side and capitalism on the other socialism would be smack dab in the middle, gray. Maybe humans need to start taking their heads out of their assholes and take a look around at what is working well in other countries. Perhaps we can borrow the best from each country, such as collectivism from eastern countries. It’s time to quit bickering in this black and white world and make a nice gray haven.